Looking up the hill tonight
When you have closed your eyes
I wish I didn't have to make all those mistakes and be wise
Please try to be patient and know that I'm still learning
I'm sorry that you have to see the strength inside me burning

Where are you now, angel now
Don't you see me crying
And I know that you can't do it all
But you can't say your not trying
I'm on my knees in front of him
But he doesn't seem to see me
But all his troubles on his mind is looking right through me
And I'm letting myself down deciding is falling you
And I wished that you could see I have my troubles too

Lookin' at you sleeping
I'm with a man I know
I'm sitting here weeping while the hours pass so slow
And I know that in the mornin' I have to let you go
And you'll be just a man once I leave to know
For these past few days someone I don't recognize
This isn't all my fault
When will you realize

Lookin' at you leavin'
I'm looking for a sign

~The Hill, Marketa Iglova (Once OST)



Wow, two journals in one day! I'm on a roll!!! Actually, I'm on the phone with Lexie right now, expertly ignoring him, not really thought because we're still talking because I can multi-task, yay me!!! Lol, anyways, I came to realize today after pondering my last journal entry that I'm not actually any more anti-social and socially retarded than usual, it's that I am not really happy here. That's not to say I'm depressed or sad or anything, it's just that I'm not happy. I mean I have no friends or anyone close to me really except my family, and while they're great and all, they're not really satisfying my social needs I guess... But anyways I guess being here just has that sobering effect on me because even if my friends that I miss are here, I still act all weird and lonerish, but when I go back home to Montana I'm CRAZY! Bouncing off the walls, talking up a storm, rushing about town, visiting people and doing things. But here, I'm boring and do nothing, even when I'm with the people that I miss most! It makes no sense!

Haha, yes and I'm aware that none of you actually care, but it's my journal I'll babble if I want!!

Anyways in other news I've become aware of the world of podcasts!!! It all started because the AnimeForum that I'm a member got it's own podcast and I was like hey that's cool *looks up other ones* And then I found TONS of great anime podcasts! And the G4 podcasts!!! And the ASK A NINJA PODCAST!!! It's the best ever!! I've been watching it all day! "You can't grow tacos!!!" and "Recipe for destruction: one cup of the idea of chaos... a bearded man!" *dies of laughter* I'm sorry, it's just too awesome for words!!! Yes everyone should go get iTunes right now if for some odd reason you don't already have it! *glares* And subscribe the Ask A Ninja podcast, it's free and has tasty ninjas!!!

Lol, ANYWAYS, also I stole ANOTHER quiz thingy from Anna, she's got the stuff if you know what I mean! So Enjoy my lovies!

Step 1: Put your music player on shuffle.
Step 2: Post the first line from the first 20 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing.
Step 3: Strike through the songs when someone guesses both artist and track correctly.
Step 4: For those who are guessing -- looking the lyrics up on a search engine is CHEATING!
Step 5: If you like the game, post your own.

1. It's been a while since I could hold my head up high (It's Been A While by Staind, guessed correctly by *Saphire282)
2. I'll be coming home just to be alone
3. (The original number three was in Japanese so I decided to skip to the next one to make it an all English thing so people could at least have a chance at guessing right! ) Started at the age of four, my mother went to the grocery store.
4. (Spanish song, skipping to next one) Where is you boy tonight, I hope he is gentleman.
5. Hey dad look at me, think back and talk to me.
6. (I'm skipping this one because it's totally an independant underground band that not many people no of... They rock though! But they broke up, sadness! ) I took her out, it was a friday night.
7. What's this? What's this? There's color everywhere. (What's This? by Fall Out Boy, guessed correctly by *Saphire282)
8. Breaking down from every insult that you've taken
9. Thursday's crush is a friday rush and monday morning cry. (This Will Be My Year by Semisonic, guessed correctly by *glunac)
10. I once knew a girl in the years of my youth
11. Hey porter! Hey porter! Would you tell me the time?
12. I'm looking at you through the glass (Through Glass by Stone Sour, guessed correctly by *Saphire282)
13. I've got a hunger twisting my stomach into knots
14. The world's got a funny way of turning round on you
15. All of my life, all of my time, I don't wanna come back round tonight
16. I got my first real six-string, I bought at the five-and-dime
17. (Japanese song again, same band too! xD) 6:30 Winter morn, snows keeps falling, silent dawn.
18. I've been searching for a man, all across Japan
19. All my life I've been searching for something
20. From underneath the trees we watch the sky, confusing stars for satellites. (If Everyone Cared by Nickelback, guessed correctly by *Saphire282)

And that's my twenty, now guess my lovies, guess!!!! Teehee, I don't think anyone will actually guess... If no one does I'll add the second line to each to make it easier but you have to at least try first! Most of those are fairly mainstream... Uhm actually like all of them! >.>

Okies, well I'm going to try to not ignore Lexie now and I've got fanfic to write so I'm outie peoples!

Toodles!

~Sam~
My heart's a hole that needs to constantly be filled with love.
















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